October 3rd

I think I may have been happier today than I’ve been in a long time. It seems like I keep saying that to myself randomly over the past month or two. The words just keep floating through my mind - “I haven’t been this happy in such a long time” …

Things aren’t necessarily perfect. There’s work, school, money, personal things to work out, but still… I don’t feel like I’m drowning. I feel hopeful and safe. It makes all the difference.

Today I had my eyes checked for the first time since High School. The doctor made a comment that people “like me” come in to his office a couple times a month - people who can see just fine, but aren’t satisfied. Hah. I really just want to be less of a danger on the road. Who knows if glasses will fix that.

The rest of the day involved tanning, an hour long shower, some internet perusal, and a lovely lunch of ice cream and Sims. Lazy lazy Monday. And a grey Monday! Rain is almost here and I’m more than enthused about its arrival.

I worked a short closing shift and did my best to get as much done as possible. I have some ass-kissing to do at work to ensure I keep my job *and* actually receive hours. My boss gave me (and the other employees) a list of expectations for the next month and he wants me to prove my place in his store.

After work I went to Tim’s and we watched another crazy episode of Breaking Bad and then part of a documentary called “Catching Hell.” Both were entertaining… Although, Breaking Bad makes me sad to watch. The main character is diagnosed with lung cancer and it’s hard not to think about my grandpa. Every time the character coughs, I think about the nights I spent sleeping on the floor in the room above my grandparent’s room, listening to my grandpa’s strained breathing.

Despite the sad memories though, I do enjoy the show and my BB-watching partner. Not to mention, I always like lying in bed with him. Ever get that puzzle piece sort of feeling with someone? Where things just… fit? It’s lovely and more comfortable every time.